To Save Lucifer
CHAPTER 5
PARTY TIME
“Lyluth, Lyluth, come on now woman, are you going to
arise or
have you resolved to slumber through this entire evening’s events?”
Catlain was shaking me aggressively, trying to elicit a response from
my lifeless, body. “Well, am I going to proceed to this function alone
or what?” she demanded. “Ok, ok, I’m up! Discontinue harassing me, will
you? I am assuredly awakened by now, noisy, gee! Why are you inspired
with such impetuosity? Subsequent to this evening, we will have
forgotten all that we presently recognize so we can stumble in
obscurity to recover it anew. If that were not sufficient, we are
presupposed to emancipate an entire civilization, lacking the operation
of the majority of our potential. You realize that I perceived this as
a difficult designation prior to being enlightened of the
technicalities right? Now that I have been aprised of the layering of
consciousness, lowering of frequencies, desire modifications and
whatever else we will endure, it appears to be an impossible
requisition. You can not inform me that this has not provoked a feeling
of impotence within you Catlain, can you?” Catlain perched herself
adjacent to me upon the bed, stroking my long frost white hair, which
was an impressive contrast against our etheric blue bodies.
“ Frankly Lyluth, I don’t really know what I am to regard
any
longer. We are experiencing so many emotions surging through us at once
that we must be completely maladjusted at this juncture. I can no
longer distinguish; if what I am thinking or feeling is my own thought,
or an implant. The most troublesome element thus far, is becoming
familiar to this profusion of indecision. It is laborious to proceed
with any activity while ingrosed in such a condition. Hopefully Aton
was precise when he instructed us that the conflict would diminish
following our emergence upon the surface. At that time we won’t
maintain the degree of perception that we currently do, attempting to
scrutinize and consider each supposition or sentiment. We will no
longer be expending our energy separating and replacing our reflections
in a rational manner. Perhaps we will develop an intellectual
passivity, becoming reckless with our thoughts and conduct because we
won’t comprehend their effects upon future events.” She stopped and
looked me directly in the eyes, “that is precisely what I identify as
existing in the moment, no preceding considerations and perhaps no
subsequent regard either. Who can say, one element is undeniable
however, It Is much too late to avert our decision now. We are
implicated for the duration, however extensive that may be. From this
moment forward, the exclusive passage beyond is through.”
The nature of her message told me she was
experiencing the
same anguish as I was. “We must cease to dwell upon such issues for the
moment and lay them to rest for the now. This evening is ours to
embellish and if we pursue these thoughts we won’t be able to enjoy
this party. You know how much we love to party!” It was no secret that
when it came to parties, I was more than just a casual observer. I wore
the title I had earned like a proud parent, birthing a few dramatic
events of my own in the not too distant past. Whenever there was to be
a convocation or affair that was required to impress the attendants,
the name Lyluth was written all over it. The inspiration behind any
entertainment or soiree is to institute a cooperative convergence of
diversity. Generating an atmosphere of camaraderie, utilizing a
pleasurable environment, was a devoir that I had mastered. A sensation
of euphoria overcame me whenever I beheld others sharing and
maintaining an enjoyable interaction with each other. Believe me, we
had frequented many systems where individuals were remarkably different
from each other, or us for that matter. Differences seem to evanesce
within the atmosphere of an exceptional celebration, as if they
disipated at the door to be retrieved as one was departing. I
thoroughly enjoyed a diverse confluence, and took self-satisfaction in
investigating the protocols, likes, and aversions of the different
species in attendance. Consistently, I endeavored to produce an
illusory atmosphere with impressive ornamentation. It was an outlet for
me to vent my overactive imagination and outlandish creativity.
Everything had to be precise in the choreographing. Down to the
minutest particular at the most insignificant event, all had to be
flawless. Everyone knew exactly who to approach when they demanded the
engagement to be performed accurately. Never had I encountered a
disappointed habitue or as much as a whisper of a complaint issued from
even the most discriminating of clients. Parties happened to be my
metier, and worth every effort that I poured into them. Anyone could
observe my enjoyment in arranging a presentation, to be either
equivalent or surpassing that of the participants. Presentations were
always amusing also. Often, I would catch myself hiding quietly behind
a wall to catch a glimpse of someone’s reaction, as they would open a
gift. I could actually feel their anticipation and excitement
throughout my body, as if I had the experience. There were many
examples, where I embraced another’s sentiments so distinctly, that I
would actually encounter them myself. If this would transpire in all
individuals, we wouldn’t need to be rescuing anyone from anything. If
you could experience the pain or suffering that you inflicted upon
another, you wouldn’t repeat it often. Wondering to myself, I thought
out loud, “That’s exactly how it is though.” Most beings didn’t realize
it but they would at some point experience everything that they meted
out to another, themselves. The problem was that it didn’t usually
occur instantly. This led to the notion that there were actions that
went unnoticed. Unfortunately, these actions would be paid for
eventually. Nothing is ever lost. Every thought, desire, deed, or
whatever, would be registered in the fabric of time. It was common
knowledge to us, that everything possesses an individual vibration.
Vibrations create imprints and can be read listened to or felt by
others, capable of attuning themselves to that specifically desired
vibration. In this way, there would be no T uncrossed or I un-dotted in
the book of life. Nothing goes un-noticed, ever.
Tonight’s agenda would be a contrasted experience for me,
being the first major event that I participate with absolutely no
connection to its production. As was usual, Catlain was entertaining my
precise thoughts in synchronistic timing. One could hardly refute the
depth of our coherence. Sometimes, I felt as if Catlain were an
extension of myself existing in another body, and what a fabulous body
it was. Why couldn’t it be the other way around? This way, I could be
the extension of her. (And her body) Almost immediately after the
thought had danced across my mind, I heard Catlain comment, “Well
Lyluth, tonight is truly going to be a treat for you. You are finally
going to a party as a guest. What a great opportunity to enjoy yourself
instead of investing your energy in the production. I can not recall
the last assemblage that I’ve ever been to that you weren’t involved.”
It was true; everyone automatically connected me to parties. That was
quite all right with me too. After all, what else was there that
brought more smiles to people’s faces? What offers a greater sense of
joy, fellowship, or sharing? You tell me what could be more satisfying
to everyone involved? Entertaining on any level requires an enormous
amount of commitment as well as devotion toward the service of others.
It was absolutely stimulating for me to employ my aptitude toward the
production of something unique and unexpected. These conceptions were
all appropriate and virtuous, but my considerations were swiftly being
drawn into another, more unfamiliar area.
What was it that permitted us to remain so placid
and
composed about our circumstances? An impression of anxiety began to
permeate my attention. Why were we so nonchalant in our attitudes,
encompassing such a majestic enterprise as this? Here we were, soon to
become novel beings, in neoteric bodies, on an inexplicably dissimilar
province. But, we can’t be bothered with apathetic concerns, such as
these. We were preparing to participate in an illustrious bon voyage
bacchanal, lacking the burden of anything more imperative. One thing
was certain; the illustrations of spawning incongruity were much more
apparent than they had been, initially. A collection of unrelated
issues, one after another, filtered through my thoughts. As quickly as
they would enter my mind, they would pop right back out. I began to
emphasize my attention upon a particular fancy, which quickly delivered
a grin, spread wide across my face. My sly fantasia was unmistakably
obvious however. Catlain was promptly responsive to what ever might be
going through my head, this time, “It certainly wouldn’t hurt”, I
blurted out, knowing she could barely withstand it any longer. “After
all, what would I have to lose?”
Catlain was about to rupture with curiosity; I could see
her
squirming in anticipation. I could not deceive someone with her
expansive perception. “Alright!” I proclaimed, you are obviously
cogitating what I could find to be so amusing, am I correct?” Before
she was capable of responding I truncated her speech, “ok, I’ll apprise
you.” Directing her to a small couch, I took her hand and requested
that she sit with me, and I would explain. “You know how long and hard
that I’ve been trying to get close to Aton. There is not another being
alive who knows my desires as well as you, Catlain. Our closeness has
allowed us to share more than simple ideas or emotions. I thought that
if I shared my plan with you that you might be able to help me execute
it. All I want is one last attempt at enchanting the Captain. It seems
immensely ironic that I should be the one chosen to seduce Commander
Lasiter, when I can’t even beguile Aton. Look how incessantly long I
have been involved in this pursuit. It is quite all right though; I am
going to look incomparably alluring, as I have never looked before.
Then, I will verify if my abilities are worthy of such experimentation.
Really, what have I got to lose? It’s now or never. I could certainly
utilize your assistance Catlain, what do you answer?” “Why not, we will
go out with an explosion of levity, in support of a new beginning, we
just won’t remember any of it,” she responded rather sarcastically.
This was certainly an overlooked reflection, as it had
never
crossed my mind, ”We won’t remember anything that happened before
tonight, would we? In that instance my dear, it would neither benefit
nor complete me, to tantalize the Captain if I won’t remember
accomplishing it. I would do best to leave well enough alone. If ever,
I make my return, I will be changed so much by my experiences that I
might perhaps lack the desire to continue my relationship with Aton.
This new adventure is certain to change many circumstances. I might not
possess the proper faculties to begin processing my considerations,
regarding Aton. It is difficult to avow, how things might be between
us.” “ Forgive me,” interrupted Catlain, ”the capacity for love
is the
strongest endowment throughout all universes. If you genuinely adore
Aton, and he truthfully loves you, nothing could alter this, no matter
the duration of your separation. Once again, there is only one way that
you or I will discover this. The only passageway in, is through also.”
She was correct, of course. The responsiveness I felt for those, not as
fortunate as myself, was evident. I knew that I would experience this
new drama in order to actualize my devotion, as well. The majority of
us signed up for this mission for the suspense and titillation of
unknown adventure. Others did so because it appeared to be the most
applicable deportment or maneuver. These issues had an express
significance in my own decision, additional to the desire to be of
assistance. I thoroughly treasured an adventure. No doubt that this
adventure would hold many unexpected treats. I have been involved in
situations previously, of my own crafting, that I later desired no more
than to find a graceful retreat. Sometimes, I would get caught in my
own web and had to ride things out all the way to the conclusion. Quite
assuredly, this was going to be one of those occasions. The resistance
in my emotions was notably observable to my awareness. The difficulty
lay in distinguishing whether this resistance was my own, or was it
another implanted emotion? It was just too formidable to identify the
difference.
“What, if any, of our covenants would we remember after
tonight?”, I petitioned Catlain as I mussed through my wardrobe trying
to select something stunning for the party. “I’m sure no matter what
the case may be, we will invariably remain friends.”, she replied,
”Let’s make a pact, a new covenant, that no matter what eventuates, we
will never forget each other, ever. No matter what form that we might
find ourselves, we will readily recognize each other. On some level we
will apprehend our love of each other, deal?”. “You bet! How could you
contemplate that I would ever forget you? How could anyone possibly
forget you Catlain?” I was being facetious before.” “I venture that you
would be hard pressed to pluck me from out of a drove of Zetas, or even
those lizard creatures on Drakon, wouldn’t you imagine? After all, they
look exactly alike. Zetas are much similar to automated clones. I
suppose you could consider them as a worker colony animated by a group
consciousness that act on the directives issued by their queen. The
appearance of a Zeta is entirely different than that of their queen
though. The queens reminded me of an insectoid type of entity.”
“To
tell you the truth Lyluth, I speculate that I could indeed pick you out
of the crowd. Knowing you, you would probably have some sort of totally
outrageous marking, something out of the ordinary to make you stick out
from amongst all of the others.” “You often do amaze me!” I said,
“That’s a fabulous idea Cat. From this time forward, no matter what the
role, no matter what planet or whatever form I select to inhabit, I
will choose to be different from the rest until we remember who we
truly are. We will no longer require making ourselves noticeable to
each other after we have accomplished this. What then is your answer
Catlain, do you love me enough to be different? Would you permit
yourself to relinquish your awesome beauty, until we encounter each
other? Lifetime after lifetime no matter how long it should take?”
“Consider it rendered then Lyluth. I acquiesce, because I do love you
that much, and then some. I sure can not explain to you why though, at
times you are so irksome to me. Sometimes you appear so childlike while
other times you have spoken and executed some of the most profound
things I have ever witnessed. At times, you seem like an angel and then
again, you can be quite alien. I guess, what I am saying is that I love
your versatility..”
“Oh stop it Catlain or you will make my head deform
from
being inflated by such ethereal words. I will be floating through
the
heavens all night. All of this love and admiration!” I laughed, “ Let’s
hug and get it over with so we can proceed with our preparation. You
had better stop all the gabbing.” “ Me? Are you talking about me
effecting all of this prattle? What about you and your long winded
philosophical tales? I literally believe that you should be a
storyteller Lyluth. Perhaps you could encrypt some of the creative
chimera programs for the entertainment simulator, if we ever return.”
I didn’t like the sound of the word if, when was more appropriate to
me. We were bound to make it back eventually. These are our natural
characteristics and appropriate station. Our origins, from within the
stars and our composition, of a cosmic substance. We were never
intended to remain grounded to any particular reality structure, spirit
is meant to be sovereign. Our accurate constitution would consistently
challenge the attainment of that freedom, until it was achieved. We
intrinsically know that it is ours to experience and relish.”
I was fond of the way our bodies were at present.
You might
perceive us to possess lightbodies. Our form had a soft bluish
appearance, which radiated a glowing energy field from within that took
on a watery semblance. Our hair was long, flowing midway to our backs,
and was iridescent white. Our eyes were large and were the shape of an
almond. The color of them would alternate depending upon our intellect,
from black to violet to blue. Some of our twelfth phasers have red
eyes, an indication of extreme wisdom and perfection. I would expect
that our new bodies were not going to be too unpleasant. Our appearance
was essential in apprehending the attention of the men in the Command.
After all, how could we hope to be fortuitous if we were unsightly? We
were soon to voyage into the underworld. How strange that I would call
Lucifer the underworld, perhaps an allusion to our descent to reach it.
We began to dress ourselves for the evening’s festivities.
I quizzed
Catlain, “Well, how do I look?”. “Not unfavorable, actuality, I
don’t
know how you do it but your appearance is awesome. I would lay a wager
that Aton won’t be able to pull his attention from you all night. I
mean it, you really look radiant.”
Splendid! I want to register a permanent impression upon
him
this evening. Perhaps it would have to endure for aeons at that.
Frivolous thoughts of how I should wear my hair, up off of my shoulders
or down, were running through my mind? Aton was partial to it up
because it made me appear more refined or mature, from his perception.
Who among us is able to speculate when it pertains to that man?
Speaking of men, I had not observed Catlain’s involvement with anyone
on the ship of late. Perhaps she was preserving herself for um...
what’s his name? What was the name of her target, it evaded my previous
inquiry. I was too captivated with my Commander and the thought of her
pursuit never entered into my contemplation. “Present me your dossier
so I can inspect your intended fellow while you are endeavoring to be
aesthetic, I petitioned Catlain. You are too much of a laggard anyway.”
“Go forward with the insults, have an enjoyable experience with it
while you are able.” She smiled, “Some individuals just possess too
much excess time and do nothing constructive with it. Does this sound
similar to anyone we might know dear? Be my guest, look it over, it’s
sitting on the table by the door.” I walked over to the indicated
position and picked up the dossier. Reading it I pursed my lips and
said, “Hmmm, they call him Llewellyn. Possibly, my imagination has been
working overtime, but, do all these men’s name’s begin with the same
consonant?” “I am not sure about everyone on the planet Lyluth,
but
the men of the Command do. Apparently you didn’t conclude the
instruction on the history simulator. The men from the original landing
crew named the planet after Lucifer, their antithetic hierarchical
chieftain. From what I interpreted, they favored the planet because of
its base density. It was the ideal medium to enact their contrivance,
which was to create a colony of individualized, ego based souls.
Lucifer hypothesized they would be the ultimate aggressive labor force.
There were two ranges of operation where he was adamantly in scrupulous
disagreement to the statutes of animation, regarding the creation of
biological life forms. The first was the concept of ego based
free
wills, the second, self-duplication. Free will, is an endowment of the
spirit to the soul of an individual entity. The ego, is an aggressive
force that judges free will through the perception of self-importance,
which Lucifer attached upon the individual souls of his creations. This
third aspect of identity was not intended by the creative forces, and
was perceived as diametrical to maintaining order and peaceable
habitation. Lucifer, presuming himself duly qualified and unequivocally
accurate in his understanding, amassed a profuse quantity of
proponents, who broke away from the creative forces and began
manufacturing their own lifeforms. These new lifeforms were bequeathed
independent resolution through an ego motivated emotional structure,
with the additional endowment of the capacity for reproduction.
The manner in which this was accomplished was by layering
the
consciousness within these individuals, fabricating the perception of
duality through resisting polarity fields. The structuring of
oppositional polarity fields were generated to support the illusion of
separation from source. Through this fabrication, the spirits animating
these new prototypes would be veiled in awareness of their divine
origins.” She stopped briefly and smiled at me. I regarded her as she
continued her elucidation. “It was intended that spirits would be
capable of utilizing alternative selection in their experience of
materiality. This could not be accomplished without the support of the
illusory separation, known as duality consciousness. The initial
structure of elemental experience is supported by unified
consciousness. This is the degree of awareness that is maintained in
the sub-structure known as heaven, by what is perceived as angels.
There are twelve divisions or species of these celestial entities, of
which, Lucifer belongs to the Serpentine and is classified as an
Archangel. An Archangel is of the highest order via seniority of
experience with creation of physical realities. Without the
incorporation of oppositional characteristics, spirit would flow
constant without any specific agenda, as it had from the beginning.
There would never have been a challenge for the spirit to focus in a
specific area in order to become that particular object of desire. The
overcoming of this challenge is what strengthens the soul. A new game
plan needed to be implemented into the picture. It would be what we
refer to as the free will experiment. Each soul would be allowed to
decide for itself, a direction of growth. Their choices would be in
total opposition to each other however; each would lead eventually to
the same place. The duty of the opposition was to create dysfunction,
pain, negativity, unfulfilled desire, and imbalance. All of these
things are opposing to the natural freedom of the spirit. This would in
turn, generate the experience of duality, of right and wrong, good and
evil. All, so that soul would have a choice.”
I knew all of this information very well on an inate
level. As
difficult as this may sound to the ego mind you currently possess, none
of this was outside of the original plan of the creator. The problem
arises as the individual tries to rationalize such a concept. Why in
fact would all of this be allowed to occur if the creator loved it’s
created? When unconditional love can actually be experienced, then and
only then will such a thing be revealed. The best way that you might
understand this premise is by association. Imagine that the family is
at a picnic and the child wonders off, not too far to hear your call
but heavily involved in it’s play. There is no reason for concern on
your part as you know that in truth there can be no harm come to this
child, as it has the power of the entire cosmos within it and it knows
such. Let us say that upon your first beckoning for the child to come
back to the rest of the family, the child resists and desires to
continue on with it’s play wondering a bit farther off. Before long you
realize that the child has, through it’s own desire wondered out of the
reach of your beckoning. This is where the rational mind might balk and
say why would anyone allow such to happen if they loved the child. They
would not allow the child to wonder off without demanding it to return.
The human parent would threaten punishment to the child for going
against its wishes, exercising control over the child, to manipulate
the outcome to it’s own desires. I tell you this, your maker and giver
of all life does not impose his will upon the created but allows them
to experience the life which has been given in the way that it deems
fit. Universal laws are the house rules set to remind the created when
they were involved in activity that was out of alignment to their true
nature and well being. They were not created as punishments but as
guidelines. The created has became so caught up in its play that it
quickly forgot not only from whence it came but it has also forgotten
its identity. It no longer remembers what the family looks like as it
has been gone out for so long. The child believing itself to be
abandoned has built up a resistance to the knowledge that it’s family
does indeed love it as it wonders why no one cared to look for it. In
reality many of it’s siblings have tried and continue to try and bring
the child back to the family only to be shunned and pushed away by the
child, it’s fear of failure, non-acceptance and punishment for
disobeying consumes it’s thoughts. It no longer remembers the love and
allowance that it experienced within the family. It no longer feels a
part of the family because it thinks itself unworthy of such love. It
has chosen to rebel and do it’s own thing, totally hating it’s creation
but not willing to take responsibility for it.
The situation that was occurring on the planet Lucifer
right
now was an example of the creations of a child making mischief,
thinking itself an outcast. This child was creating great opposition in
the eyes of all who were involved. It was also creating new choices by
making it painfully obvious that the spirit is meant to be free and
will fight for its birthright. After lifetime upon lifetime of
overcoming all of this opposition and making choices from experience,
the soul is tempered to the point of unbelievable strength and
character. All of which it has earned, an accomplishment rewarded by
the ability to return to the source from which it came. There, it will
be joined in happy reunion with others of its family that have overcome
this great opposition. This is exactly what we would be playing out but
on a smaller scale, you see? We feed the source or the all of existence
constantly, as it feeds us whenever we choose the path that leads to
positive growth.
I must have fallen asleep when I was reviewing because
some of
the information on the origins of the Luciferian Command was vague to
me. What I did remember was that they used a lot of symbolism in their
Command insignia. “Do you recall what the meaning behind their
symbology is Catlain?” “I think that the all Seeing Eye of the Command
Control had a connection somehow to the mesmerizing power behind these
eyes of theirs.” she said, “And I am quite sure that Commander Lasiter
would be happy to share that information with you doll, if you plant a
big, hot wet kiss across his lips. How could he resist?” “Ha ha,
Catlain, real funny. If you shut up for a while you could start getting
ready.” I responded. “ Look who’s doing all the gabbing now dear. I’m
ready and waiting on you. This Llewellyn dude looks pretty fine too you
know? You had better hurry up or we are going to miss the whole thing.
Its party time!” she sung as she walked toward the door.
As we entered the grand event room, Catlain nudged me and
said, ”See, I told you that it wouldn’t be the same without your
friendly touch.” “Yeah, but I didn’t have to work my butt off either.”
I said,” I’m going to soak it all up.” Looking around the room I
noticed that Aton was not present anywhere. No doubt he was delayed
because this is one of the few instances where he could be overlooked
for such behavior. He is normally under tremendous pressure to be
punctual in everything else that he does. NOW would be his best
occasion to be leisured. “Aton is probably tucked away somewhere
relaxing. After all that hard work, standing around telling everyone
else what to do. I can understandably consider that such an excessively
stimulating release of energy could really take a lot out of a guy, you
know. All that Captain’s work, I.......” “Eh-hem, Lyluth, look
behind...” Catlain stopped before she finished.
“So, Lyluth, I can see that you’re feeling very
arduous
tonight!” I felt a firm squeeze from behind me on my shoulders. “Sure
enough, of all the times for you to pop up, of course it would have to
be while I was in the middle of running my mouth on you, right?” “I
would imagine that I could have popped up as you put it, just about any
time at all and I would have caught you paying lip service to me
Lyluth.” “Oh Aton, you know me better than I know myself, but not
quite all of me. Isn’t that right?” "I know enough of the
portions
that I have interest in and that is all that matters to me dear.”
“I
can not get over how romantic that you are Captain. It’s no
wonder
that I never see you in the company of other women around the ship. As
a matter of fact, I probably spend more time with you than anyone else
here. There has still been little to no visible sign of affection
towards me from you.” “Well, what exactly would you have me do Lyluth?
Is this what you want?” He reached out to my hand and pulled me up
against his chest, put his hand behind my head and drew me closer,
until his lips met mine and he quietly kissed me. Long, gentle, moist
and passionately, he did it, he actually kissed me. I stood paralyzed
as my entire body went numb. My mind when blank and my head was
reeling. I felt as though I had magically entered into an altered state
of consciousness.
Never in my entire life had I experienced such a thrill.
To my
very soul, I could feel a sense of euphoria. Was all of this
enchantment bursting forth from just one simple kiss? It wasn’t how I
fantasized it would be. Oh no, it was much more powerful than I ever
imagined possible. Do you understand the significance; this was my twin
flame. Through him alone will I experience the ultimate union between
body and soul. Could he possibly be experiencing this same effect, as I
am? How could he not feel at least something extraordinary, stirring
within him? Only through hindsight of the human condition am I able to
reveal this statement, but a physical orgasm is incomparable to the
intensity of pleasure that was currently coursing through my entire
essence. I actually felt my spirit leave my body and dance among the
stars and then return. The kiss was over, but I would never be the
same. I stood transfixed before this man I cherished so deeply. I
contemplated, why now? Why did he wait so long? What could I possibly
do now about such a situation? In all sincerity, I was being asked to
sacrifice my greatest desire to be of service to the source. I knew I
AM was all knowing and all seeing, that it knew the thoughts and deeds
of all. I prayed that if there was a reward for conscientious and
faithful servants that I might be granted this one desire. Please let
this be my reward. Let me find this twin flame at the end of this third
dimensional drama and allow me to share with him all that I can not
share with him now. If there ever comes the time that he recognizes me
as his twin flame, we will be united as a total balanced being, one
flame from that moment onward.
“Oh Aton, I don’t know whether to laugh or to cry. I just
don’t know what to say right now. I feel as though each and every cell
in my entire body is celebrating a glorious event all to themselves. I
can’t put into words how I feel right now. I love you Aton, but even
that doesn’t seem an adequate offering to you. You sure know how to
astound someone.”
“I thought that I would show you how very special that you are,” was
his response as he went on, ”and how much you mean to me. You not only
mean a lot to myself, but to all of us. I know that you enjoy my
company and being near to me. I also like being near to you Lyluth. I
felt that it would be nice to share this evening with you. Will you
dance with me, how about it?” “What do you think? Do you really need to
ask such a question Captain? I have pictured this in my mind so many
times, but I never thought I would actually experience it. Maybe it
would be better if I didn’t talk much right now. I definitely wouldn’t
want to say anything that would ruin all of this. Ok, let’s dance.”
As we walked to the dance area, everyone stood watching
as
Aton held close to my arm. Every face had a smile stretched wide across
it. Not one single person would protest to the idea of us being
together. It was as if they had all been waiting as patiently for this
moment as I had. It wasn’t just me either. Everyone knew we were meant
to be together. When they finally saw it happening they were satisfied
with the outcome. Like a story that constantly keeps you wondering and
hoping for a certain outcome. When it happens, there is a feeling of
relief about the whole thing. Everyone was as happy about this scenario
as I was. The only one who was actually surprised was myself. I felt as
though I were living out my fantasy. The entire evening seemed to have
a dream like quality about it from this point onward. I was in a state
of such complete euphoria that practically anything at all could have
happened and it would have seemed taintless to me. Every now and then
one of the girls whispered in my ear, “ Good going Lyluth,” or, “About
time,” things like that. It was Catlain though who actually cried for
me. She knew best of all my emotions and could feel my happiness and
joy. There was no question in her mind of Aton’s worth to me. She was
as happy for me as I was for myself. Catlain was a consummate companion
and our friendship was not all too uncommon amongst our people. The
difference was that our particular friendship seemed flawless almost at
all times. I didn’t feel exceedingly deserving of her friendship but I
did love her so very much. Wouldn’t it be grand if everyone felt that
way about everyone else? What a thought, we would all walk around on a
love high or something. Sounds like a good invention. Instead of a fear
fog like the Luciferians used, we could emit a love fog from the ship.
We could chase everyone down and blast them with euphoria instead of
terror.
“Some enchanted evening huh Lyluth?” Aton murmured, “I
could
tell you all manner of things right now and you won’t ever remember it.
Even when you come back to the ship there will be a short period of
time that you will not be able to recall. There is a time between what
is happening prior to your suspension and again before your awakening
that will be wiped from your memory. At least in most cases, this has
been the occurrence. We are not exactly sure why this happens, but it
does and there is nothing that we can do about it.” “Oh that’s
real
convenient now Aton, how advantageous for you. That is quite acceptable
though because I don’t believe that there is anything that could wipe
this feeling from my heart. Maybe my memory won’t be too clear but the
feeling will still be burning deeply inside my heart. Aren’t I such the
romantic, ahh?” “Come with me Lyluth, I’ve got something that I want to
share with you before I knock you out, so to speak.” He walked towards
the center of the room and told everyone how much he loved each of us
and that we would never be alone. “Do a good job and make them fellows
fall in love galls! I have something that needs my attention at this
time so; I will be leaving you. Pleasant dreams everyone. When you
leave this party, go to the Health & Wellness Division. There you
will be assisted for suspension. The next time that you awaken you will
be with your host families and will be ready to resume your final day
of nursing school for the TRACS unit. Good wishes to all of you as the
all that exists remains with you eternally.” The girls applauded as we
slowly walked towards the door. A few shook Aton’s hand and a few
others gave me a sly little wink. I am certain that I must have floated
on past them.
“So Aton, what kind of little surprise do you have in
store
for me?” “It wouldn’t be a surprise now if I told you, would it?”
“I
couldn’t think of anything more exciting than that wonderful kiss you
just bestowed on me back there.” “Oh, is that right?” He
questioned me
as we walked into his quarters. He requested my favorite music on his
console, knowing that I was partial to Pleadian melodies. I couldn’t
believe he was doing all this for me. “Come over here and sit
down
along side of me Lyluth. If you were surprised by the kiss I gave you
at the party, do you think that you would be able to handle another?”
He bent forward, leaning closer to my body, he pulled me towards him
and passionately kissed me once more. Again, it seemed as though all
time was suspended and my soul was no longer restricted to the confines
of my body. I was soaring high in the cosmic realms of ecstasy, and I
never desired to make my return. My experience was increasingly more
fulfilling than that of my most superlative expectations. This
was the
man that I esteemed above all else next to Catlain. I was so contented
to have this opportunity to share with him. I closed my arms around him
as I felt him pull me so very taut against his body. My eyes slowly
closed and I lapsed into a dream, a dream to last an etrnity.
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